Four Months Away

*Edited to add: I am posting now, but not publicizing my posts. Figured it'll just make sense and take some tasks off my to-do list once I'm cycling. 

Well, here I am. 

Again.

Writing and anticipating my next steps (or pedal rotations!) that will be underway in four months. 

There are many reasons why I am writing and documenting but WAITING to publish these posts until I'm on my ride. 

I want to document my thoughts, preparation and reflections in a way that I can revisit.
I wanted to share all of my anticipations in 2015-16 as I prepared for my ride; I wanted to include all my loved ones and be very transparent in my posts. But, this time around, I feel more interested in going inward and keeping my feelings close to my chest. 

Because I didn't finish the entire planned ride in 2016, I feel like I might have built my ride up too much. Loved ones mailed me thoughtful items and letters along the way, but when I ended early, I missed the last mail drop and those items were never delivered. People hoped for good things for my ride and when I stopped early, I worry that I somehow disappointed people. 

I know my people love me, but I also feel like I need to prove my worth and ability this time around. Right or wrong, that's how it feels. 

So, I'll write and prepare but I won't publish this until I've left and ridden many miles. 

​Thanks for joining me!

xo- Amy
January 27, 2020