*Edited to add: I am posting now, but not publicizing my posts. Figured it'll just make sense and take some tasks off my to-do list once I'm cycling.
Well, here I am.
Writing and anticipating my next steps (or pedal rotations!) that will be underway in four months.
There are many reasons why I am writing and documenting but WAITING to publish these posts until I'm on my ride.
I want to document my thoughts, preparation and reflections in a way that I can revisit.
I wanted to share all of my anticipations in 2015-16 as I prepared for my ride; I wanted to include all my loved ones and be very transparent in my posts. But, this time around, I feel more interested in going inward and keeping my feelings close to my chest.
Because I didn't finish the entire planned ride in 2016, I feel like I might have built my ride up too much. Loved ones mailed me thoughtful items and letters along the way, but when I ended early, I missed the last mail drop and those items were never delivered. People hoped for good things for my ride and when I stopped early, I worry that I somehow disappointed people.
I know my people love me, but I also feel like I need to prove my worth and ability this time around. Right or wrong, that's how it feels.
So, I'll write and prepare but I won't publish this until I've left and ridden many miles.
Thanks for joining me!
January 27, 2020
Amy spends her days caring for her children, keeping up with the interweb, drinking coffee and talking about birth and babies.